Holy Crap. THIS.
Why?
Because I’m a recovering Perfectionist. Because I’m afraid to let errors show. Because I’m afraid to put something out there, if I don’t believe it is ready or perfected.
Why?
Because people may not like me. Because I’m a people pleaser. Because then they may realize, I’m really not good enough. I don’t really belong here.
NONSENSE. Right? Like when we pause and get out of ourselves, we realize this is total nonsense. But my truth. For much of my life, this has been my truth. Or what I thought was my truth. And really, if we ever stopped going down this rabbit hole, paused, and listened, observed, heard…we’d realize EVERYONE is trying to go down the same damn rabbit hole. Every. Single. One. Of. Us.
We all worry, at some point in our lives, about what others think. And we worry more about what they think, than what we, our own selves, think. And then we morph and change and edit and airbrush.
Or we just hide.
We don’t even try or put it all out there. Because we are scared and worried that it isn’t right. And then, again, that means we may not fit in. So we keep ourselves from maybe doing what we were meant to, doing what brings us much joy, all because we worry it may not be “right” enough. Good enough.
And so, it is becoming clear to me, that my participation in NaBloPoMo is helping me practice, helping me be intentional in just getting started. In not worrying about getting it right. So I plug along. Every day, thinking about what I should write about. Most days, not following any particular prompt, but rather choosing to write about whatever is on my mind or in my heart that very day. Knowing that it may not be the most provocative or interesting post. Knowing that it may not be the most well thought out or captivating of posts. Knowing, that it may not be perfect.
But I write it any way. And I trust that in the process, I learn, I remember…that I am enough. I belong. I am right where I am supposed to be. Imperfections and all.
And so I ask you…
What are you not doing? What are you hiding or holding, instead of releasing, because it’s not yet perfect? Whatever THAT is? Stop worrying about getting it right, and just get it started.
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